It’s been four days since the marathon. I’ve had a lot of free time to reflect on it since I had Monday and Tuesday off of work.
First, I want to apologize for not being more positive after the whole experience. I realize there are readers out there who have not run a marathon before, and the last thing I want to do is shy anyone away from training for a marathon. Instead I really encourage anyone and everyone to go for it. Don’t wait until you’re “ready”. Pick a race, register, train, and you will become ready. It can be done.
Second, I’m trying to figure out why I’m so hard on myself. I wasn’t raised by parents with overly high expectations. I’m really not a perfectionist…So why am I defining my first marathon by a number? 5:17:33. My husband and I were discussing this, and he said this:
“You’re quirky. You just do and think very irregular things. That’s just you.”
He’s right, I do have some odd-ball quirks. But I don’t think being hard on myself should be qualifed as a quirk. In all honesty, I think I’m more dissapointed in myself for not being more happy for me. When I looked up my photo results from marathonfoto.com it actually made me tear up. There’s a girl who finished right next to me, she has the biggest smile in the world. I am not smiling…I resemble a zombie.
But the good news is, I lived, and I learned. It’s okay to have goals, and it’s OKAY if you don’t accomplish them on the first try. Someone tweeted to me the other day, “marathons are like city buses, there’s always another around the corner“. How very true (and good thing I’m a fighter, because next time I’m out for blood).
There’s not another marathon within driving distance until around April/May 2011. There is one October 31st, but it’s full, and that would be way too soon. It would be amazing if I could afford the Las Vegas Rock’N’Roll Marathon on December 5th, but that’s a far fetched dream for my wallet.
“If you’ll not settle for anything less than your best, you’ll be amazed at what you can accomplish in your life.”