Between the home buying process and marathon training, I developed an anxiety build up and I finally exploded. Poof! went my sanity. For a 12 hour time span I was oversensitive and had a disordered perception of my very being.
And then I danced.
I threw in my Dance Central game for the Xbox kinect to pop and lock my evening away. Damn it really felt gooood. Now I know why Ellen DeGeneres is always so cheerful, she dances.
On the home buying front, the inspection is today. Things are slowly becoming more real. My bank account is slowly shrinking. And my biggest concern is that the closing date is set for eight days before Wisconsin Marathon. Oh those 26.2 miles will never come easy.
As for training, I have lost speed. Just a couple of weeks ago I tried to convince myself that I didn’t lose speed, but darn it, I did. Where did it go? I can’t find it. I’ve been told it’s the weather, it’s the winter, it’s the dark, it’s just a funk, I’m putting too much pressure on myself, etc, etc.
In the big picture, the speed isn’t that important, but I do fear that my marathon buddy Diana will have to ditch me at the 10k mark if I can’t pull myself together by then. What is important, is that I’m runnnnning and my legs are okay with that. My delicate, injury prone, overdramatic legs are letting me train again. I’m very grateful for that.
When life hands you oranges and they turn out to be lemons, it’s good to take a moment to be grateful for the sweet lemon-aid. Better yet, make like Ellen and dance.